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[14 Jun 2007|06:41pm]
sooo. i dont really remember day by day anymore. ive been working four days a week 6-8 hours a day at the doctor's office and i LOVE IT. i like working with my mom, i like the job (just filing and paperwork handing out and stuff like that). i like working with people, scheduling appointments. and i love my coworkers. im not sure if they'll keep me because they're hiring people permanently but i hope they do because not only is it good money, but its fun.

my vector job has been going okay. its just a little side job, its easy, and im getting a decent amount of extra cash. its annoying having to call around and ask to set up demos bc i know it pisses people off but what can you do.

last night we drank at cheryl's which was fun because we never do. i got almost drunk, which i havent been in a while. went to the diner. other than that, ive been to the beach with dd and yvonne, went to the same beach at night with the whole gang (aka cheryl, ronnie, goldberg, lipstein, cleo, and deirdre). typical. i dont hang out every night anymore because im exhausted from work a lot.

this weekend im going to martha's vineyard with dan and his family. its the first time ill be spending more than 5 minutes with them soooooo. but i think theyre a lot of fun so i hope itll be a good time.

then dans coming to visit again july 5th. yay. everyone here liked him a lot when he visited.. and of course, i get to see him!!

other than that, no big plans, just hawaii/california at the end of the year.

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[28 May 2007|04:59pm]
So I was reading over my lj a few weeks ago, and I had written a little update about every day, and since this brought back a lot of nice memories, I'm doing the same this summer:

Last Saturday:
I came back from college, which was sad because some friends I won't see until September. Got Panera's with grandpa, taught him how to drive a little in the Sears parking lot. Was maddddd tired but went to Randolph's party for about an hour, reunited with everyone, then went home.

grocery shopping, probably mafia at Cheryl's and chilling with grandpa.

Cleaned room, mafia at Cher's, and stuff like that

mall with Cleo ad Yvonne to get work clothes; couldn't find any. Interview with Vector Marketing - got the job, found out Dan got the same one, that silly goose. Went to Cheryl's, general chillage.

Park with grandpa and little brother. Scavenger Hunt at night - Yvonne, Jon, and Ryan were on my team but we lost - lame.

Stayed home all day, cleaned and unpacked (partially), wanted to go to Pirates but decided to wait because it would've ended at like 2:45am and I had to wake up early the next morning.

Bronx Zoo with grandpa. Met up with TONYYYYYYYY in the city, walked around for a bit, Daniel came!! Went home, then to Cheryl's to sit around the fire with Dan, Cleo, Cher, Andrew x2 and Ronnie.

kayaking on the canal with Cleo and Dan, party at Emily's, where Daniel met everyone. Diner after.

Dan left =(. Babysit Alyoshka, who got very sick and went to the ER. Cheryl's in the evening for mad mafia.

chores, unpacking. Memorial Day BBQ at Cheryl's.
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[01 Sep 2006|04:12pm]
So I'm in college. I miss everyone dearly.

My roommate is very nice, I'm glad we got paired up.. she doesn't know a lot of people here either, and she doesn't just go off and ignore me. I guess I'm lucky.

I've been to 4 parties in the 3 nights I've been here, but last night was the first time I really had fun. We pregamed for a frat party that was cancelled, so we walked around, sat on the hill, went to another frat but it had run out of cups, some kids rolled down the really wet Foss Hill, Eli (a 6'10" tall guy.. almost 2 feet taller than me) was quite drunk and really funny.. I laughed for the first time in days.

Derek's coming on Sunday and staying through Monday. It's fine with him, so far, for the most part. When my mom and Derek left after they helped me move in, I was really sad, and I just started thinking how I'll be home every weekend and just transfer to RU as soon as possible, and I still feel like that sometimes, but other than that, it's fine. I get by. Sometimes I'm bored as hell because not much is going on (like now) and I'm too lazy to go socialize.

Ahh I might take a nap, though I woke up at 11:30 today.
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[25 Aug 2006|01:12am]
[ mood | sad ]

Big events in my recent past:

I just got pulled over, like 20 minutes ago, for tailgating. Because I was following Goldberg home and he decidedd to do 20 in a 35. But I only got a warning so it's ok.

I got my cartilage pierced yesterday with the QRTT (except Cleo just got a third hole). I really want more piercings now, but since I don't want one anywhere except for my ears, I think I'll have very holy/heavy ears pretty soon.

College is too soon and I haven't started packing and I don't wanna think about it.

I opened a bank account on my very own today - both checking and savings at Bank of America. Except I decided not to ever get a credit card because I don't want more loans than I already have.

Everyone is still bothering me about Derek - that's one thing I'm looking forward to, in college: people not asking about him as much (hopefully).

I have so much left to do in barely any time. This is terrible.

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[18 Aug 2006|01:35am]
[ mood | content ]

So I got back from Europe which was pretty sweet. I'm 18 now, and I tried to open a Victoria's Secret Angels card today now that I can, but apparently you need another credit card to open that one so it didn't work out.

That's ok. It's weird being 18 because my mom has totally started treating me like an adult.

Everyone's been leaving for college.

Let's resume the daily recount:
Monday: got back late after going through a terrible flight from Heathrow to Ireland to JFK. Derek came by to give me my birrthdy present (at like 12am).

Tuesday: Went to Sandy Hook with my mom, brother, grandparents, and Derek. Went to Derek's house.

Wednesday: Beach with Deirdre and Cleo. It was so wonderful to hang out with my friends after not seeing them for a while. In the evening, went to Cheryl's barbeque where pretty much my whole grade was. It was nice, but I'm very tired of playing mafia..

Thursday (today): Derek came over, watched Mysterious Skin which was pretty much gay porn. I debated whether to go to the Gnarls Barkley concert in Central Park with Jon, Josh, and Rob, but didn't feel like paying $35 to hear the two songs I know. So Derek and I made dinner for my family. I think they really like him, which is good, considering I really like him. In the evening, went to Mark Ciecura's house to watch Entourage and Who Wants to be a Millionaire? It was his last night, and Kara's, and all the Cornell people. I also found out today that Colin left for college while I was in Europe, as did Derrick, and that made me really sad because I didn't get to properly say good bye.

The end.

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[28 Jul 2006|01:35am]
Lemme try to remember:

Wednesday: mini golf at work. Went to Cheryl's, mafia, diner with a million people
Thursday: mafia at Cheryl's, swam in her pool in our underwear.
Friday: Derek slept over my house
Saturday: Had a wonderful day with Derek in the city. Went to the Museum of Natural History, then walked around in Central Park, and then I took him to an Uzbek restaurant in Brighton Beach.
Sunday: Visited Derek at work, went to a Wesleyan party in Short Hills (people are quite cool!).
Monday: Went to Barnes and Noble with Deirdre, then mafia night at Cheryl's.
Tuesday: didn't work, went to get a Hepatitis A shot and an X-Ray, then went kayaking with Yvonne, Deirdre, Fanny, and Jon. Went to see You, Me, and Dupree with Cheryl, Andrew, Andrew, Lentil, and James, then went to Yvonne's house and chilled with people until close to 3am.
Wednesday: Bowcraft with work... lots of sick kids. Washington Rock Park with Josh, Neil, Deirdre, and Fanny, then Dunkin Donuts for about 5 hours, then barefoot soccer in Evergreen field at 1:30am.
Thursday: went to Derek's, watched most of Cache.. reallllly scary. Derek got me this really beautiful aquamarine (his birthstone) necklace... it was really sweet of him.

I'm leaving for Europe tomorrow for two weeks, by the time I get back I'll be a legal adult.
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[21 Jul 2006|01:12am]
[ mood | indescribable ]

So I totally had like the most cliche Garden State-style moment tonight. I went swimming in
Cheryl's pool in my clothes. It was awesome.. but very cold.

I love my summer so so so so so so much. And I love all of the oh sixers.

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[18 Jul 2006|09:21pm]
Friday: left work early to go to Wesleyan's Summer Send Off but ended up feeling very sick. Turns out, I had a fever. So.. that ended my plans of sleeping over Derek's house, but he came over anyway, that cutie :).

Saturday: Drove to Derek's, went to Island Beach State Park with Derek and his sister - didn't really swim because it was cold. Went out to eat at Cracker Barrel with them, then chilled at Derek's house and went home.

Sunday: Went to Waterloo Village with Deirdre - this was pretty awesome. Derek came over in the eve, watched Failure to Launch

Monday: Didn't work, went to Island Beach State Park with Deirdre and Jon. It was probably the nicest day I've ever been to the beach because it was unbelievably hot and shit but the water was sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo nice. We tried to build a sandcastle and then covered Deirdre in sand and just chilled and it was very very awesome. In the eve, went to Cheryl's for mafia night.

Tuesday: Work. Ughhhh. After work, tried to go to the pool with Deirdre but didn't, and now I'm bored and it's thundering out! Bo-ring.
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[14 Jul 2006|11:06am]
Since I cannot get ready for work because my cleaning lady is cleaning my bathroom, I figure I'll update.

Monday: work. Derek came over. Went to see Pirates with Deirdre, Cleo, and Yvonne. Ran into Neyl, Lentil, and Devang. Went to diner with Jon, Neyl, Danny, Yvonne, and Ron. Saw same lady with latex gloves as last time we were there and Danny showed us his balls!

Tuesday: work. Slept over Yvonne's house with the QRTTians.

Wednesday: work - took the kids to Watchung Reservation. Babysat my brother. Went to Deirdre's to watch The Graduate, then Yvonne and I picked up Jon and went to Yvonne's house to watch Family Guy.

Thursday: work. Went to Chelsea's, hot tubbed, played Scene-It for a little. Went to Cheryl's for mafia night!! Said good bye to Closef, as I won't see her for a whole month. Hung out with Yvonne, Deirdre, and Jon and Deirdre's house playing Ghost Party.

I've been coming home around 1:45 every night. And my mom doesn't care. I find this highly awesome and slightly amusing.
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[10 Jul 2006|09:20am]
[ mood | sleepy ]

OK next update:

Monday: Hung out with Derek. I forget what we did. Slept over his house.

Tuesday: Fourth of July! Derek went to work, then he came back and we watched the whatever world cup game was on, then we attempted to go to Jersey City to see fireworks but there was no parking. So I went over Cheryl's, sat in her sauna in my clothes and sweated like a maniac, then played mafia with a gazillion other people which was a lot of fun.

Wed: work - took the kids bowling. That's about it.

Thurs: After work, went shopping with Yvonne-neh. Got lots of stuff as usual.

Fri: work. Derek came over, went to Watchung Reservation, then out to eat at Applebee's.

Sat: Went to Derek's, then to Woodbridge mall with him. Saw Closef. Went sour cherry picking (haven't made a pie yet). Went back to Der's house, had dinner, then went home, then to Ronnie's party for a little.

Sun: Went shopping with my mom for dorm room stuff - this made me both more excited and more nervous. Then went to Deirdre's to watch the World Cup Final (ughhhhhh why Italy?). And then to Danny Appel's graduation party. And then back to my house where I played Sims 2 with Deirdre (soooooo interesting) and then Deirdre left and Derek came over and attempted to give me a French pedicure but then got really frustrated and gave up.

OK the end.

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[03 Jul 2006|09:41am]
So first, here is the rest of my week:

Tues: First day of work. The kids are pretty sweet, but a LOT of work. But they like me, which is good, and they made a "Liza fan club" for me. PS I'm a camp counselor. In the eve, I decided to forsake my social life and play SIMS until 1am.

Wed: Terrible day at work. Went rollerblading, whcih was fun, and then one of the kids got a nosebleed and it was not good. After work, I went to Deirdre's house to hang out with the QRTT. We watched Four Weddings and a Funeral which sucked.

Thurs: work work workity work. Katie's birthday party. Then off to Cheryl's for four square/mafia/all around good time.

Fri: workkkkkk. Drove to Derek's, then he drove to my house, then QRTT+Derek saw really girly movie.

Sat: Watched Portugal vs. England with Derek, then went to Cleo's to watch Brazil vs. France. Then Deirdre, Cleo, Amira, and I went to Watchung Reservation and walked around, and went on the playground, and then the four of us + Derek went out to Applebees, which was followed by Tepper's (or Temper's, as Deirdre likes to call him) party, which was a good time.

Sun: Went to Sandy Hook with the QRTT, I did not get tan. Went to Yvonne's parents' barbeque, ate everything in sight, played soccer barefoot in the very heavy thunderstorm, got a little crazy.

OK, moving on to a more deep subject. This summer is going totally great, and the more I hang out with various people, the more I realise that this is exactly where I want to be - I've become that person I always wanted to be when younger. I remember in 10th grade, Yvonne and I would always whine about not going to parties, not having any exciting guy friends, not doing the typical teenage thing. Some people have a negative view of this, like, why would you want to spend your life just drunk and doing stupid things, but I disagree. And now, I'm having the time of my life, I go to parties, hang out with (mostly the quartet but also) a good mix of people, people actually know who I am. I have suddenly, within the last, oh, 2 months, become everything I'd wanted to be, and didn't really have to try hard to get to this position. I'm not bragging, I'm just in awe of this. And I'm sad that this will all end soon.

In other news, I got my APs because Wesleyan gives them out early, and I'm super excited because I got 3 fives (and 2 fours).

And in other other news, my relationship is really slowly going down the drain. I really wish we would both try harder to save it. It really hurts me, and it's terrible to be in a relationship that's deteriorating, but at the same time, I don't want to leave it because I do love him.


But apart from that, life is good.
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[27 Jun 2006|02:55am]
[ mood | happy ]

OH man I love this summer.

Here's a brief summary:
Thurs - graduation, decorating cars, project graduation
Fri - Sandy Hook with mom/moms friend, sleepover Derek's house
Sat - mall with Derek, Cracker Barrel =) with Derek, watched Pretty Persuasion - good movie
Sun - went to Museum of Natual History in NYC with my mom, got 9pm phone call from Jon to come to Tom Ventura's party, went to said party, did a kegstand (oh yeah), went to the diner with Kara, Deirdre, and Jon
Mon - work (set up) - i love all the counselours already they are sooo awesome, Derek came over and we watched UKRAINE WIN YAYYYYY and Moulin Rouge, went to Tommo's house again, went back to my house with Cleo and had a thoughtful conversation, drove Cleo home and went back to Tom's to give people rides, then went to the diner with Deirdre, Yvonne, Jon, Dave, Danny, and Josh Green.

oh and i foudn out where im living next year at wes, and i got into fauver, which is like pretty much brand new was my top choiceeee yayyyyy.

So yeah, life is awesome, and heres a couple of pictures to summarize it:

(my kegstand, which i'm very proud of. btw those are jon's pants, not mine)

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[24 Jun 2006|02:24pm]
So, I'm a high school graduate. I don't even know what to say. I personally loved high school. I complained about it all the time, counted down the days to graduaiton, but as the numbers got smaller and smaller, I kind of wanted to freeze time. It still feels unreal.

I miss everyone already. Project Graduation was fun, I slept for a while after, then went to Sandy Hook with my mom, brother, and mom's really really nice friend from Israel. Then I slept over Derek's house, woke up late once again, now it's 2:30 and we still haven't left his house.

It's weird. No more high school ever. The onyl time I cried during the ceremony was after Cleo said "I love you" at the end of her speech - I teared up. Then I cried yesterday when Derek picked me up, but I was just in a weird mood all day.

I'm going to keep my car decorations on for as long as possible. Because it's really pretty that way.
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[13 Jun 2006|10:50pm]
End of School Memories


- Who was your closest friend in this class: Katie, Justine
- Who was the teacher?: Goudy
- Was your crush in the class?: no.
- Was this your favorite teacher?: one of
- Grade: The only grade Goudy ever gives


-What did you do during 2nd period?: physically educate myself
-Who did you talk to the most?: for the first half of the year, Shannon; for the second, Kate and Joanna
-Anyone you wanted to shoot during 2nd period?: the sophomore who is now my AWT partner
-Were you failing this class?: no
-What class was it?: gym
-Grade: whatevz


- What class was it?: ap statistics
- Did you ever fall asleep in this class?: yes, actually
- Was this ur favorite class?: hahaha no
- Who did you talk to the most?: everyone, we all talk collectively since our class is like 10 people
- Grade: graqdes dont matter


- Who do you sit with at lunch? : my calc class but to my immediate ledft/right/across were cheryl, cleo, deirdre, and saif
- Who do you talk to the most?- same


- Who did you sit by?: katie, josh, ian, cleo, deirdre, neyl
- Did you hate anyone in that class?: no
- What class was it?: bc calc
- Was it your fav. class?: no but the people in it were
- Were you failing that class?: no but i failed some tests
- Grade: whateveeer

- Teacher?: sarcona
- Who do you sit with?: colin, jack, jon
- People that get on ur nerves?- just when everyone starts yelling at him while im trying to review for finals
- Favorite class?: no
- Did you have a crush on this teacher?: hahah oh jeez
- Grade?: Q


- What class was it?: ap German
- Did you ever fall asleep in this class?: a few times
- Was this ur favorite class?: i didnt really have a fave class but i guess this came close
- Who did you talk to the most?: the qrtt
- Grade?: cabbage

Teacher?: Brand
Favorite class?: it wasnt but now that we dont do much its better
Who do you talk to the most?: qrtt
Grade: sasquatch

ok this survey did not meet my expectations. Two more full days of school how tragic.
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[12 Jun 2006|11:42pm]
OK so how terrible/ironic is this:
ive been moping around for days because i reallty regret choosing wesleyan over rutgers. i know i know, i hated rutgers but
1) all my friends are going there
2) wesleyan will give me lots of debts
3) i would have more opportunities at rutgers in terms of majors, jobs, internships, etc
4) im gonna get really homesick and dereksick being in CT

this sucks a lot. i like wesleyan with all the stuff they have to offer but at the same time, im not sure if its worth paying so much money for.

ahhhhh. i guess i can always transfer.. i hope ill end up really loving it though.

p.s. i really love you, derek. i know its lame to put it up in my lj, but i just wanted to let you know. i couldnt get through anything without you.
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[08 Jun 2006|05:51pm]
[ mood | tired ]

As promised (not that anyone cares because youve all seen them on my Facebook):
prom/prom weekend/other senior picsCollapse )

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[07 Jun 2006|10:35pm]
It's reaaallly senior time.
I'll put up pics some time (Facebook takes most of my internet time).
Prom weekend was a blast. I have never had so many people kiss me [on the cheek] and hug me and want to do shots with me. Spooning was fun too.
Senior picnic was okay, not as fun as I thought. Today I got my senior shirt, my time capsule back from Keller, my MUSE, and my yearbook, at the Senior Social. I won't be in school tomorrow because I'm getting my greencard.
But anyway.

Life is good, despite the fact that I've been pretty sick during/after prom weekend.
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[03 Jun 2006|10:18am]
Prom was amazing. Derek and I got really lost thanks to mapquest and didnt get there until almost 2 hours later, but everything made up for it. I love my Class of 06. I loved being able to go up to anyone and receve and give compliments on how they look. I loved Kristen's house, and all the parents telling all the kids to have a good time. I loved being in the middle of an Andrew sandwich (ha). I loved how they played Journey as the last song. I loved the big circle of people hugging each other and dancing all together to our theme song. I loved Mike Fragna throwing me up in the air during the "jump, jump" song.... okay, actually, no I didn't. He was very sweaty and it was kidn of gross.

And I love this upcoming prom weekend, yay.

Pics from prom are up on facebook.
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[25 May 2006|09:23pm]
[ mood | tired ]

My week once again:
Got my hair dyed as usual. I really want to do somethign more drastic but everytime I tell my hairdresser to make it almost strawberry blonde she makes it Russian-plum colour. I don't care, I still like it. Derek and I shopped because I needed to find more dresses, but instead I ended up with underwear #59.

Uhm okay pretty much failed my calc test part 1. Uhh... Leaders.

Things are looking up! I didn't fail my calc part 2 test. Then there were like a total of 5 hours of awards. I got a $1000 scholarship and then juust like pieces of paper for getting a good PSAT score.. Uhm.. yeah. Then we fooled around at Deirdre's hosue after the evening awards in our pretty dresses and you can see the pics on Facebook (yeah! because that's all I ever do now), but here's some for show:

Went to Six Flags with everyone for physics. Which was awesome because I totally went on two roller coasters, conquering my fear. So now I'm not scared (except maybe Kingda Ka because I actually don't want to lose my limbs), but I get neck pain from going upside down do to the g-forces or whatnot. So =[ for me. Twas fun, but tiring.

They put out the crashed car on the front lawn of the high school today which means that PROM IS NEXT WEEKKKKKKK!!!
Wow. I cannot believe it. I'm just hoping the weather's fine. And the Derek's fine. He's always fine though. My fine man.

4 day weekend woot!

The end.

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[21 May 2006|01:30pm]
[ mood | content ]

The life of a senior is not very relaxing at all:

Sunday: homework. Went to Borders, finished a whole book which was kind of a rip-off of Palahniuk's style. Went to Barnes&Noble, bought an Andrew Bird CD, drobe aroudn for an hour listening to it. more homework.

Monday: Stat final, part four. Discussed Friday's party with 783456 people for about 4 hours. Lots of homework. Went to the mall with Derek, got him a tie. Got me underwear. I am up to 58 pairs now. I have a feeling I'll be up to 100 by the time I leave for college and thus will never have to do laundry while I'm there.

Tueday: Honor Society movie night after school. Pretty much I got an XL shirt which sucked, traded down to a medium which still sucked. Went to the sub place to pick up subs with Dave, Neyl, Cleo, and Daisy. A bit scary because Daisy had gotten her license like a month ago. Closeph and I sat in Daisy's car for about 45 minutes because .. I don't really know why. We then discovered that she, Neil, and I live in an equilateral triangle. Went back to the movie night, it went okay.

Wednesday: Wrote research paper. lots of feking homework.

Thursday: Research paper. Went to a 2-hour required seminar at the YMCA on What is Child Abuse? Apparently, child abuse includes giving piggy back rides.

Friday: Shopsing with Deirdre/Closef at Jersey Gardens, my new favourite mall (after King of Prussia, t'course!). Got some stuff as usual and then found a cute dress for one of the 4? award thigns I have to go to, and some nice jewelry for my prom dress, yet the stupid store didn't accept the credit card (losers) so I ended up with all this stuff and not the dress I set out to get.

Saturday: 1 year anniversary! Der and I went and finally rented a tux (yes, not a suit, yay) and SHOES (not Rockports, yay!), which was nearly as costly as my dress. Then we went to Princeton, ate at Panera's, bought another Sufjan Stevens CD, went to the pond in his town and walked exactly 1 mile. I half-climbed a tree, which was hard to do because it was leaning over the pond, and I had flip-flops and a skirt on. Hand-fed some ducks (but no ducklings =[). Rented Donnie Darko since Derek has never seen it, and some other movie. Watched part of Donnie Darko but not really.

Sunday: Have done nothing. Read some of The World According to Garp. Ate some. Chilled some. Played with my brother some. He is such a cutie.

The end. I have a 52-foot roll of paper to fill with Russian culture, a certain Woolf book to reread, 26 physics problems to solve, and er... that's it.

PS. My car is in the shop. I feel so helpless.

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